June 2008
29 posts
little kids know what they're doing when they...
i build walls. i keep people out. i leave just enough room to get to know very few people because i am scared of getting hurt. i don’t admit to being hurt all too often, but that’s because i don’t let myself get hurt too often. i protect myself. i keep my guard up because, in theory, if i let it down, someone, someday will find a way to break me. but who says that everyone is...
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girl please
i’m in the best mood. i think i’m probably bipolar, but not really. they just say that you have to hit rock bottom before everything starts to go right again. that all just happened so suddenly for me. i felt like my entire life was falling apart last week, and now everything seems to be working out in my favor. i really do mean everything. i got an apartment of my very own. i am...
eggs benedict
i need that dish. i need to get to tempo cafe immediately, if not sooner, and order the eggs benedict. i’m having a serious craving. that english muffin with the juicy, perfectly sliced canadian bacon, topped with poached eggs and hollandaise sauce. OH MY GOD.
i’m really hungry. this morning i woke up and decided that instead of riding my bike all the way to work, or taking public...
“you take relationships too seriously. those are the thoughts.”
– christopher edwards
i’m doing a lot better today.
i’m starting fresh.
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i'm sort of bored today
“i wish that you would move to the sun cause you’re like diggin’...”
– ugly casanova
man-o-man!
a lot has happened in the last 24 hours and some of it is worth talking/complaining about. seriously. last night i was starving to death because i hadn’t had one bit of food all day [the break-up diet works wonders for my non-existent weight problem] so i decided to go to potbelly. i park my car in this lot that clearly says “for cheetah gym only” but in louisville, no one really...
i made a playlist. i make a playlist everyday. but i just figured out how to successfully post them so here you go, world. this is what i am into…today, anyway.
my stomach is in knots, b t dubs.
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the afternoon.
i’m starving, so that means i’m doing better right? or maybe it is my body kicking my ass for not eating anything. ha. either way, elizabeth and i are going to tempo to get some breakfast grub.
what i’m coming to understand is that while i am the sort of person who immediately wants to talk things out, there are other people out there who need their space and time to clear their...
the morning.
i have had a bit of time to wind down and have successfully made it a solid 6 hours without crying. mind you, i was sleeping during those 6 hours, but cry-free nonetheless. i am miserable for the most part. of course i have glimmers of goodness, like last night hanging out with some friends. but even then, too much talk about familiar things and i had to leave and just go home.
i have so many...
i'm just sitting on the shelf. [i decided on...
at a pathetic attempt for attention, i posted something that i’m not ashamed to say i shouldn’t have earlier. it shouldn’t have been read by anyone other than one person, but i thought getting my feelings out here before they went to him was a better way of dealing with it. as it turns out, i’m an idiot.
i singlehandedly destroyed my relationship with someone that means...
things that i want [some of which are a little...
i’m addicted to ebaying, just in case you were wondering. i like it way better than real shopping. now, i just have to find out what brand that $130 dress i wanted yesterday is so that i can find it online for cheaper. mmm…productivity mixed with pleasure at work. i am a fan of today.
ps - happy birfday to my dear friend coryy popp
those lucky ducks in milan have easy access to the shirt i’ve been searching high and low for. no response from comme des garcons retailers in the u.s. and no online sales either. if you can’t read the shirt, it says “comme des fuck down” which i think is quite amazing. they have great clothes. oh, why i can’t i live somewhere with a sweet fashion scene.
today for...
everyone: go to this !
“you are always tryin to keep it real. i’m in love with how you feel. i...”
– the moldy peaches
these past few days have been pretty damn good.
i wish i could make everyone around me happy all the time. it is the worst feeling in the world to know that someone close to you is feeling down, especially when they can’t figure out why. whether you pretend to relate to them or you actually do, in all reality there is little that can be done to help.
i want it to feel like summer for...
a clean home is a happy home
yesterday carlos and i spent most of the day cleaning our apartments. i also have been spending a decent amount of time at target. i have redecorated my room and now all i need is an AC unit. it is so flippin’ hot! lee and brit are finally here. it is sort of surreal. i’m feeling better about everything. having close friends here is comforting. now i’ve got lex, lee & brit...
springtime can kill you
it is days like these when there is no question about what i want most out of life. i want someone that loves me unconditionally to rip out my uterus and ovaries. i want to kick down the sears tower. i want to fly into space and shoot fireballs out of my mouth at the earth. i want to take the girl who keeps e-mailing me about subletting my apartment and throw her at a brick wall. at this juncture...
“this is the day your life will surely change. this is the day when things fall...”
– the the
happy birthday carlos!
in addition to it being my boyfriend’s birthday, this is also the day i officially apply at columbia. i decided yesterday that i need to start school, for real this time. i am applying for the media management program and hoping to take some advertising courses as well. i feel like this is one of the smarter things i could be doing with my life.
let’s face it. it is 2008 and if you...
starting over
i’m going on ten months here in chicago. the honeymoon stage is over and reality has been sinking in a for quite a while now. my moods and emotions have never been so up-and-down in my life. one day, i feel like i have great friends and a great job and i’m on top of the world. then there are days like today when i don’t feel like i belong anywhere. not in chicago, not back in...
